Happy new Years

Fresh starts, thanks to the calendar, happen every year. Just set your watch to January. Our reward for surviving the holiday season, is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of new years resolutions. Put your past behind you, and start over. It's hard to resist the chance at a new beginning. A chance to put the problems of last year to bed. Who gets to determine when the old ends, and then new begins? It's not a day on a calendar, it's an event, big or small. Something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope. A new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning.

But it's important to remember that amid all the crap, are a few things really worth holding on to.

There's just too much that time cannot erase.

Have you ever looked at a picture of yourself and seen a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you, how many moments of other peoples lives have we been in. Were we a part of someones life when their dreams came true, or were we there when their dreams died? Did we keep trying to get in like we were destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise? Just think, you could be a big part of someone else life and not even know it.

Off Topic

Is there really such a thing as good and bad or right and wrong? Or are those just meanings that we assign to things in order to understand them better? It's all relative to the individual. Do good and bad or right and wrong exist, or is it just an idea? Or and illusion.

I believe that our morals and the way we were raised decide between whats good and whats bad. What if for somebody else it's the opposite? What if they were raised to do bad things? Would that make it right for them to do those things? And would the bad things that they were raised to do still be bad? In a way, yes. If they were praised by doing something someone else feels is bad, to them it would still be doing something good. And for them, would it be right for our society to punish them for what they did? Society plays a big role in the judgment of good and bad/right and wrong. Is it fair for our society to make that judgment? If the government put out a new law that said murder is legal, would we automatically praise the shooters from columbine? It used to be the right thing to do to kill, to make sacrifices to the Gods. When did it become the wrong thing to do?

Is good and bad/right and wrong just a subconscious feeling that decides what feels good and what feels bad? Or is it someones decision that made us feel like we're doing good and bad things. But without the rules, would doing something "bad" still be bad?

There are two attitudes. To one all is wrong, to the other all is right. Good and bad and right and wrong is just a dualistic way of thinking. You should see everything for what it is instead of what you think it should be.

sometimes a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a mo

"When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end."

Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of success, then some would say I'm a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to to go of the past and recognize that every day won't be sunny.

"So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination."

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There are things that are known and things that are unknown and inbetween, there are doors

Douglass Adams once wrote; 'He felt that his whole life was a dream, and he sometimes wondered whose it was, and whether they were enjoying it.'

"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. But once in a while, people push onto something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going at it alone. And just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. because it's only when you're tested that you truly discover who you are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be."

You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices. Or you can fight back.

If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment, one moment that you've always wanted back.

IDA Scott Taylor once wrote; 'Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone, and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.

You gotta let it go..

You can do this, if you try. All I want for you is to be satisfied. Don't you worry, you'll find yourself. Follow your heart and nothing else.

You could be happy and I wont know. But you weren't happy the day I watched you go. And all of the things that I wish I had not said. Are played in loops til it's madness in my head. Is it too late to remind you how we were. Most of what I remember makes me sure. I should have stopped you from walking out the door. You could be happy. I hope you are. You made me happier than i'd been by far. Do the things that you always wanted to without me there to hold you back. Don't think, just do. More than anything, I want to see you go... Take a glorious bite out of the whole world.

The tide that left and never came back

And Hansel said to Gretel: "Let us drop these breadcrumbs so that together we find our way home." Because losing our way would be the most cruel of things.
This year, I lost my way.
Losing your way on a journey is unfortunate, but losing your reason for the journey is a fate more cruel.
The Journey lasted eight months.. Sometimes I traveled alone, sometimes, there were others who took the wheel, and took my heart. But when the destination was reached, it wasn't me who arrived. It wasn't me at all.
And once you lose yourself, you have two choices, find the person you used to be, or lose that person completely. Because sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been and remember the person you were meant to be, the person you wanted to be, the person you are.
George Bernard Shaw once wrote: "There are two tragedies in life: one is to lose your hearts desire. The other is to gain it."
This year, I got everything I wanted and everything I wished for, but in a way, I lost even more.
Shaw was right. As we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things we think will make our lives better, we ignore what truly matters, the simple things. The things we probably already had.
So Shaw thinks that getting your heart's desire is a tragedy? I say he's wrong. Yeah, losing your heart's desire is tragic, but gaining your heart's desire, it's all you can hope for.

i'm gone and you're all alone

It's been a while, but this is basically it.


Let the sunlight in
You might never get this chance again
So take a deep breath and hold it in
You should take a picture
Cause you might never see me again
I said take a deep breath and hold it in

Because you're not in love
There's no way you possibly could
You shouldn't even like this
You just like the way it looks
If this is the end, and what's done is done
Then I wont have to keep hurting anyone

So let the wind take its course over everything
You have no control when it's out of your hands
You should take a minute for it all to settle in
I said take a deep breath and hold it in

Because you're not in love
There's no way you possibly could
You shouldn't even like this
You just like the way it looks
If this is the end, and what's done is done
Then I wont have to keep hurting anyone

Let the sunlight in
You better get as much as you can
Cause you might never feel the same again
And take the wind, let it blow away everything
I said take a deep breath and hold it in

Because you're not in love
There's no way you possibly could
You shouldn't even like this
You just like the way it looks
If this is the end, and what's done is done
Then I wont have to keep hurting anyone

Gooday sunlight, I'd like to say how truly bright you are.

Most of the time it's just too difficult, too expensive, or too scary. It's only once you've stopped that you realize how hard it is to start again. So you force yourself not to want it, but it's always there, and until you finish it, it will always be ... unfinished.

I'm coming up only to show you that you're wrong. Knowing you is hardly a wonder"

All year I'd been running through my mind with his voice in my head. Living those highs and lows again, trying to keep him, but we'd had only so much time together and out of it only so many good memories and that world was never going to get any bigger. The truth was that I couldn't have kept him, even if he wanted to stay. At the end we were just pushing at each other. We'd given each other every thing we could. It wasn't enough for either of us anymore; we'd outgrown each other.

So there's two questions.. What if after all this time we've developed more to give, enough to make it enough, or How do you get over somebody who was never really yours to begin with?

Finding out.. That's something that excites me.