I find myself lying in bed in the middle of the night because of a bad dream.. about a boy of course.
Look at me. Living in paradise, yet a wreck. I wouldn't say a total wreck, I have had some experience with this lately. What makes it hard is that things get so good, but you're just ripped away again. The hardest thing isn't loving someone who doesn't love you back. It's loving someone who isn't capable of being with you. Which I guess that would be the same thing wouldn't it.. It's just, anyone can give up. it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength. But you see nobody is there to see how strong you are. You've got to do it on your own, which only makes you stronger. "You just don't know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have."
No more lying awake and wondering. watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.
Let's see what Hawaii has in store for us in the morning. Good night :)
Somtimes life is just hard for no reason at all, and sometimes in order to keep it together you've got to leave it alone.
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